In a bittersweetly ironic way this is almost like some lesson that occurred just when I was making problems out of nothing for no reason.
It started out as a little rash on my arm, like so many other minor rashes I'd got and got rid of over the years. But now, I struggled with the ever worsening condition of my hands and arms for a week, then surrendered to the infection and went to seek medical help. Now the first doctor says it's either psoriasis or atopic dermatitis. Both of those I have feared as from what I'd heard they basically wreck your life. Atopic dermatitis was my diagnosis, the general doctor, Dr #1, who I suspected to be biased because he has psoriasis himself, says he thinks it's psoriasis.
I went to see a dermatologist today, fully prepared to argue about what this is - yes, I would have argued with a specialist, because after some hardcore googling and comparing it to my symptoms, I was headstrong about what this is. Turns out, I didn't have to argue, the dermatologist took one look at this and concluded it's atopic dermatitis. Potential cause: bacterial infection. Prescribed loads of creams that sucked my account and remaining credit dry, but at least now I can fight this. And I will look and feel like a normal person again, pretty soon.
I was half-forced to take an anti-bacterial (or something) bath that cost a small fortune, and I'd basically according to them, need to do that for the rest of the week at the doctor's practice. Too expensive really, so I'm going there tomorrow to find out if I can get the goo and put it in bathwater elsewhere, like bf's folks' bathroom. Personally, I feel that with the antibiotics and cortisone pills prescribed by Dr #1 that I have been taking for 3 days now, and the cortisone- and antibiotic-containing creams I started using today, I think the baths are an overkill. Particularly for a penniless bastard like myself.
During these 2-3 weeks that it has been bad, I forgot what it was like to have normal, healthy skin, and found out what it was like to have one main dream: having normal skin. Now it looks like it's getting there.
